i’s or whatever

Eyes

The last time you saw me is the last time you’ll see me

Because I’ve found the peace I’ve spent 31 years seeking

I took a peek behind the curtain and I found all my truths

I stopped believing my lies because my eyes saw through

The masks I present are meant to skew what you perceive

And my words are like scriptures; meant to distract and deceive

I spew the trash threw my teeth

And I gnash at defeat

And I gasp as I reach

And start to slash at my…

Wrist until my blood splashes the sheets

And I drown in my pain, let it all flow

The blanket of depression has such a warm glow

Thoughts of insecurity and paranoia, they swarm as they grow

And my resolve can’t resolve anything but to let it all go

Give up and give in, my eyes turn to rivers

I choke and I cough and my bottom lip quivers

And I shiver as I embrace the hug of this death

Don’t blink because you’ll miss it… don’t let your eyes close yet

So I hope that the last time you saw me I was smiling

Because you’ll never see me again because I’m truly done trying

The last time you saw me is the last time you’ll see me

And your eyes fucking suck because they never saw the real me

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